Lately I've been thinking, and alot of times my thoughts run away with me to a place where its hard to even make sense of them anymore. I started thinking of all the labels we put on each other, and ultmiately how I simply can't stand people. In the end, I found myself not even being able to stand myself.
We fight civil rights, we abolish slavery, and attempt to make it "equal" but we never even glance to ourselves, to make it equal among our own race. Someone of color should listen to rap music, wear baggy clothes, and seem supicious walking on a street corner, and most deffinetly carry a gun. Or at least thats what we're convinced of. Even other people of color look at a another and tear them down for acting like a " white guy ". As twisted as it all is, its true. A guy is meant to be macho, no sensitivity allowed, no interest in fashin or decorating, only "guy things". If any of these things apply to your life, you are automatically a faggot, gay, sick, preverted, an outcast. The examples this world offers could go to the ends of the universe and back, but it seems we've become what we hate, or in my mind I have.
Obviously, as humans we are flawed; we lie , we cheat, we judge one another, and rip each other at the seams so in our own pathetic way we feel okay about who we are. But who are we exactly? If you claim to be a Christian, do you fit the label? Do you attend church every Sunday: don't drink, do drugs, have sex, murder, or any of the "major sins ". If so , congratulations you've now been accepted. How sad is it that the majority of those who claim to be christians either don't accept those who are just as flawed as they are, or who pretend to be one thing, and their lives speak the opposite. How sad it is that I've slowly been sucked into both of those categories. How sad it is that I don't take hold of what has been simply laying right in front of me for my entire existance. Humanity as a whole does what it can to better itself, not each other. Yet Christ portrays the exact opposite. When have we as Christians truely attempted to accept each other despite everything like Christ has us. Whether we are gays, lesbians, african americans, mexicans, murderers, liars, cheaters, sexualy immoral , you name it, Christ views us all the same. In the same way we should view each other the same. Yes we will fail, we will slip up, but I do believe that with Christ anything is possible, anything can be beaten, anyone can find hope, redemtion, and peace.
I say all this because I'm slowly finding my hope again, my redemtion, my peace. It all lies solely in him. I fear for those who don't know Christ, yet I almost applaud them because I can't imagine how you find purpose and meaning without him. I know that my life without him has been miserable. Whenever i'm not clinging to him, i'm completly lost, I'm nothing. From what started as anger and disgust for those who label and pick at each other , I instead found myself disgusted with who I have become; but moreover i found myself amazed with who God is, and that he loves me even still.
We fight civil rights, we abolish slavery, and attempt to make it "equal" but we never even glance to ourselves, to make it equal among our own race. Someone of color should listen to rap music, wear baggy clothes, and seem supicious walking on a street corner, and most deffinetly carry a gun. Or at least thats what we're convinced of. Even other people of color look at a another and tear them down for acting like a " white guy ". As twisted as it all is, its true. A guy is meant to be macho, no sensitivity allowed, no interest in fashin or decorating, only "guy things". If any of these things apply to your life, you are automatically a faggot, gay, sick, preverted, an outcast. The examples this world offers could go to the ends of the universe and back, but it seems we've become what we hate, or in my mind I have.
Obviously, as humans we are flawed; we lie , we cheat, we judge one another, and rip each other at the seams so in our own pathetic way we feel okay about who we are. But who are we exactly? If you claim to be a Christian, do you fit the label? Do you attend church every Sunday: don't drink, do drugs, have sex, murder, or any of the "major sins ". If so , congratulations you've now been accepted. How sad is it that the majority of those who claim to be christians either don't accept those who are just as flawed as they are, or who pretend to be one thing, and their lives speak the opposite. How sad it is that I've slowly been sucked into both of those categories. How sad it is that I don't take hold of what has been simply laying right in front of me for my entire existance. Humanity as a whole does what it can to better itself, not each other. Yet Christ portrays the exact opposite. When have we as Christians truely attempted to accept each other despite everything like Christ has us. Whether we are gays, lesbians, african americans, mexicans, murderers, liars, cheaters, sexualy immoral , you name it, Christ views us all the same. In the same way we should view each other the same. Yes we will fail, we will slip up, but I do believe that with Christ anything is possible, anything can be beaten, anyone can find hope, redemtion, and peace.
I say all this because I'm slowly finding my hope again, my redemtion, my peace. It all lies solely in him. I fear for those who don't know Christ, yet I almost applaud them because I can't imagine how you find purpose and meaning without him. I know that my life without him has been miserable. Whenever i'm not clinging to him, i'm completly lost, I'm nothing. From what started as anger and disgust for those who label and pick at each other , I instead found myself disgusted with who I have become; but moreover i found myself amazed with who God is, and that he loves me even still.
